Sad1
Senior Rat Expert
The hour is late, but I just wanted to report a small but significant step that I’ve taken............The past few weeks and months have been a living hell for me, having to recover from very serious mental illness, brought on by the rat, and his selling the home that was meant to be our marital home, which I fitted out completely, to his sister who is earning a ton of money in Qatar at the moment and already has a house built nearby, giving his parting speech about how he would always remember me as the ’Tender One’, subsequently making his Facebook page private for the first time in almost 3 years, specifically so that I couldn’t see it anymore, and then the final dagger was in a text exchange where I explained that in all seriousness, I wasn’t able to breathe, suffering serious breathing problems from the smoking habit brought on by being involved with him, after having not smoked for 17 years, his sending two pathetic videos, one of which I couldn’t even open but basically making a big joke about how we was running away from me is if I was something terrible to escape from, and basically laughing in my face and saying ’By’, without the ‘e’, the idiot..............
Well, I still haven’t been able to believe that despite everything and all the abuse I suffered over the years which was very considerable indeed and the money I gave, which was also very considerable indeed, that anyone, let alone somebody who would profess to love me and would love me until ‘the end’, would find it amusing to make some pathetic joke about having to escape from me and saying his goodbye, after telling him in all seriousness, by text I could not breathe ...........He tried to call me four times over and said ‘if you don’t answer I won’t call you again’..............Didn’t the stupid f..ker understand that I couldn’t breathe, and was on the verge of calling the ambulance ????
F..KING DISGUSTING PIECE OfF SHITE.............Having gone through the full gambit of emotions including crying a lot and getting angry to the point where I just pictured in my mind chopping him into pieces, and putting him into the liquidiser, and feeding him to the plants in the garden ( the poisonous plants, of course !!!!!!!!), I finally, this evening, with the feeling of complete despair and loneliness, decided to block him exactly where he had already blocked me 1 million times before on Facebook and WhatsApp, having not previously realising that I could still block him even though I was blocked, sat at the hotel that I visit to have a coffee in the evenings, a few miles from my home, feeling indescribably alone and upset, and crying, decided it’s finally time, and blocked him .............I doubt very much that it will make any difference to him although on one previous occasion a long time ago, when I blocked him on Facebook I think he just couldn’t believe it !!!!!!!!! But for me, it’s a big and very important step, because it’s telling myself ‘I really don’t need that F..ker anymore’, not that I wouldn’t still want to pulverise him if I met him in person, you understand, but it’s a big step for me, telling myself that I am no longer his victim, and he can go visit the deepest darkest depths of the fiery furnace, commonly known as ‘HELL’ !!!!!!!!!
Well, I still haven’t been able to believe that despite everything and all the abuse I suffered over the years which was very considerable indeed and the money I gave, which was also very considerable indeed, that anyone, let alone somebody who would profess to love me and would love me until ‘the end’, would find it amusing to make some pathetic joke about having to escape from me and saying his goodbye, after telling him in all seriousness, by text I could not breathe ...........He tried to call me four times over and said ‘if you don’t answer I won’t call you again’..............Didn’t the stupid f..ker understand that I couldn’t breathe, and was on the verge of calling the ambulance ????
F..KING DISGUSTING PIECE OfF SHITE.............Having gone through the full gambit of emotions including crying a lot and getting angry to the point where I just pictured in my mind chopping him into pieces, and putting him into the liquidiser, and feeding him to the plants in the garden ( the poisonous plants, of course !!!!!!!!), I finally, this evening, with the feeling of complete despair and loneliness, decided to block him exactly where he had already blocked me 1 million times before on Facebook and WhatsApp, having not previously realising that I could still block him even though I was blocked, sat at the hotel that I visit to have a coffee in the evenings, a few miles from my home, feeling indescribably alone and upset, and crying, decided it’s finally time, and blocked him .............I doubt very much that it will make any difference to him although on one previous occasion a long time ago, when I blocked him on Facebook I think he just couldn’t believe it !!!!!!!!! But for me, it’s a big and very important step, because it’s telling myself ‘I really don’t need that F..ker anymore’, not that I wouldn’t still want to pulverise him if I met him in person, you understand, but it’s a big step for me, telling myself that I am no longer his victim, and he can go visit the deepest darkest depths of the fiery furnace, commonly known as ‘HELL’ !!!!!!!!!
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keep going babe. Sending strength and love xxxx
